February 2012
5 posts
Valentines Day- lover or hater :-)
Ok…I know, I get it, I completely understand— THIS DAY!!!!! You either love it, love it, love it or hate it. I have heard about all weekend and now…here it is- the day of Love is upon us. It is funny almost to hear the extremes of people thoughts about this day- those new couples who nervously try to decide how much is to much- before I run her off. Those couples who have...
Jeff
Today is my oldest brothers Birthday- so I wanted to take just a minute to write about Him. Often times in my life- I have chosen to write about someone after they passed away and therefore they missed knowing exactly how i felt about them…how much I cared about them and loved them. So one of the things that I planned to do this year was to make sure that people know that I love them and...
Best Steps
I know that most people have a significant other in their lives— whether it be a spouse or a parent or a roomie or whatever- and I know that the time spent with those wonderful people can be so amazing and start your day off so perfectly- I know that while I do not have that type of person in my life….. some days I miss that feeling of companionship— but most days I just know...
Great Faith
Tonight I was reading the story of Isaac and his almost misfortunate end. I had been thinking about how he must have felt when his father bound him and placed him on the altar. It made me cry tonight to read this chapter in Genesis and to think about Abraham and the faith he had in his Father and then to think about the faith that Isaac had in his father! I wonder if there was more conversation...
I can't wait.
Heaven- the word itself is beautiful. I have spent a lot of time this weekend thinking about heaven. It was Friday night- I had a pretty good day at work and I came home and went outside to spend some time praying and I looked up and the sky was bursting with stars. It was spectacular! I couldn’t believe it- how special the view from earth was and how thankful I was that God had given it...
December 2011
1 post
teaching how to live....
Today has been a very difficult work day. In the work that I do you have days that are out of the park, over the rainbow, up to the moon- wonderful days….and then you have days that are just….well, difficult. I am a parent— a parent of 3 unperfect children and yet there is nothing I would not do for them. I know what it feels like to have children that sometimes make bad...
November 2011
1 post
The trees-- and makin' memories
So I do believe my night deserves a blog….several years ago- my youngest brother, Dale, preached a sermon entitled “makin’ memories”…it was a sermon about his best friend and brother-in-law- that was killed his freshman year at FH- by a drunk driver. One of the things he talked about was how he held on to the simple memories that they had made together. So through...
October 2011
2 posts
honor
Well here it is - the anniversary of a day so difficult that I can barely allow myself to think of it. 1 year ago— I said good-bye to the greatest man I have ever known, my dad. It was a very suprising and very sudden death. None of us knew he was so sick and yet the Father allowed us about a month to say good-bye to him as he headed home to be with his great heavenly Love and his true...
Be Still and Know....
Over the past week- it seems that life has been a bit overwhelming….so many changes have happened that I have found myself feeling a bit like a juggler in the circus. Last night I was washing dishes and started singing…..(yet again realizing that I am turning into my mother everyday more and more)….what was odd about this was that I was singing a song I had not heard in a long...
July 2011
1 post
Inspiration....
I saw him sitting there today- it was not an unusual sight- I’ve seen him there week after week for the past 8 years. In the beginning of noticing him-he was sitting with her. They were special- it was obvious the way they smile at each other with 50+ years of secrets and respect and love— it was obvious in the way they were with others- their spirit filled the room and the hearts of...
June 2011
1 post
"Honored"
Today on the FHU campus we had our Incredible JUMP START number 2 for the summer. This is a pretty amazing program put together by our admission team and a spectacular thing for our incoming class. By scheduled visit we have about 100 or more young people that come to campus and they get to register for their classes, meet advisors, get their college ID and of course find out about where they...
May 2011
1 post
a day full of blessings
Three years…. it’s hard to believe it has been 3 years ago since I began a new journey in my life….not the most devastating journey— just new. It has been almost 3 years ago since he and I separated. I will never forget that Wednesday afternoon going home to my home and realizing that my key would not turn the lock. Realizing that he had officially locked me out…it...
February 2011
1 post
Lectureship
Well here it is February and I have not posted all year. I have been writing very little these days- for a few reasons….the most important one is that I have not wanted to share publically most of my thoughts—I have spent more time in prayer than I ever thought possible and I have had many thoughts to write about but….they have not made it on paper for the most part. But here...
November 2010
1 post
Again.
Most of my life has been about learning lessons….. and well- you can look at my life and see that sometimes I need to do things at least twice to “get it”- to understand much of what life is teaching me. Well one week ago today- I walked away from that “ground” where they placed the body of my Father…..I had cried more than I ever thought I would- again- I had...
October 2010
11 posts
Memories and waiting....
I have, thankfully, alot of very vivid memories of my parents. I have the amazing memory of my parents at Christmases with our whole family gathered around them. I have the wonderful memory of them sitting on our front porch talking late at night- I have the memory of the sound of their voices coming from their bedroom door when some member at church was struggling and I could hear my mom tell my...
Glad I stayed...
On Sunday mornings for most of my life- as we partake in communion- I read an account of the crucifiction- I have been doing it for several years and there are still today always things about it that I want to ask questions about….I want to ask my heavenly Father so much about many things but especially about the death of Jesus. I wonder the big thing things, like most people do, how could...
the news
I haven’t blogged at all since we got the news— that awful news that hurt (literally) hurt to hear. Multiple Organ System Failure. I have thousands of words floating around in my head…and nothing seems to come out on paper-well- I am going to try today for a bit as I wait- sit and wait for my daddy to go home to write a bit. About 11:00 this morning- the doctor (this amazing...
19 days and a special gift
It has now been exactly 19 days since I heard my Father say any words….it is really odd because that is the longest I have ever gone without any words from my dad…even every year when he goes to Belize he calls at some point mid-trip-(something he started doing years ago when I was a little girl because I literally got sick every time he went) 19 days- that is an incredibly long time...
years ago.....
When I was about 13 I was riding in the car of a very dear friend and she had a song playing that I fell in love with….it was a song that became so special to me. I begged my mom to buy me the cassette (yes, I am that old) and so after telling her why I loved it she said she would get it for me- It was an Amy Grant cassette and I loved it— most every song moved me to tears on...
little....small...simple.....AMAZING
So today was my first day back to my “real life”…it was interesting at best. I came into work and had 23 phone messages and 59 emails that I had not yet responded to from the iphone- while I was away. I took care of those things that were pressing first- pretty simple things- a few dress code violations, a couple of curfew folks, and a few parents with questions regarding...
My time....
It is just after 1 a.m. and here I am stll at the hospital….it is FINALLY my turn to get to stay all night alone- in the room with my daddy. I have waited patiently while everyone in my family had their turns- and now….it is here- my time. The problem is I am confused….I don’t quite know what to do with “my time”….I just finished reading 3 chapters of...
blue....my new favorite color...
For the past 8 days I have been at the hospital most all the time….I leave late at night to go “sleep” some….and I lay there awake wondering why I left….(mostly because only one family member can stay). Most days have been exactly the same- I stand close to my dad’s bed and basically yell his name— sometimes I beg him silently to wake up- but mostly I...
Normal?
Well the doctors have left the room yet again….telling my family things that make some sense to us..and some things we cannot understand. One sentence that he has said most every visit is—” _________ (fill in the blank with an array of his comments)- but this is normal.” I know this doctor has so much knowledge…I know he is excellent- one of the very best in this...
Faith Hope, and Love
I am sitting listening today to all the noises around me….the sounds of the many machines- beeping or buzzing, the sounds of doctors making their rounds and the soft conversation of the families all suspended in this place they call the “stroke unit”. Words I had never heard until a little over a week ago. The room where my father lay so still and quietly…to quiet- is...
so much more
Today I opened up facebook and I saw 28 things on my mini feed about a pretty famous preacher— things like “please pray for our dear preacher” or “please pray for Jerry Jenkins- long time minister of the Living Word” or “our preacher is sick and needs your prayers”….all loving- all special- all heartfelt. I read each one- I had 19 messages from...
March 2010
2 posts
wonder-wonder-wonder.....
I have been wondering alot about something and just recently- it hit me— I should blog this-maybe someone will have some great thought provoking ideas. Here is my “wonder”- At what point do we let someone go— I know that every 4 years of my life I am going to see people walk away from FH to exciting and wonderful things- I also know that every year- I will get another...
what a day!
what a day! It has been about two months ago that I started making some serious changes in my spiritual life— one of those was to not be complacent in worship- It seems sometimes that I get caught up in the being at services- so I can check that off my “to do” list that I forget to do what I need to do- what I long to do- what I find myself craving to do all week….I was...
February 2010
7 posts
just praying
I have been struggling back and forth about this post— and yet my heart is so full that I am having trouble not posting. This week has been a very very tough week for our campus….a week full of some very painful realizations and some very hard decisions. This has been a week of searching for a way to show concern and yet follow guidelines established several months before this week...
“You will tell these stories- you will share what has happened to you—What...”
Run.....Home
So yesterday morning we heard a second lesson on “The lost son.” It is a subject that I have heard so many lessons on- a subject that I felt I had listened to every single life lesson you could ever ever get from it. And yet- it seems that everytime someone preaches on it- I gain something from it- I find my self listening so hard my head almost hurts- I find myself hanging on to...
To know them-
This post may be a bit creepy— sorry if it is- I have been wondering today about people I do not know— people who I often see but don’t get the chance for whatever reason to really know them. I am blessed to work at a University that is small enough that I get to almost know over half of the students on a very deep and personal level. But what about the others- tonight- I went...
the real me
I- like so many who will read this blog- had the amazing and wonderful pleasure of listening to one of “my other sons” Garrett Best speak in chapel yesterday. As soon as Bro. Billy started introducing him- I started crying- I don’t really know all the reasons behind this- maybe because Bro. Billy is so sweet and sincere- maybe because of the incredible things that he was saying...
wanted
Everyone that knows me at all knows that my children mean so much to me- they are the lights in my life- they bring me a feeling that I cannot describe in words. Tonight I was reading a pretty popular book (that several people had recommended I would enjoy) and I read two sentences that made me really really think- you know, one of those sentences that you re-read a few times just because you...
The question
Well, it has been now two weeks since beginning my new/added-on title of Assistant Dean of Women and I had a really neat and thought provoking thing happen today. The most wonderful and sweet, precious Becca Phillips came in today…and ask if she could interview me for the Bell Tower, an article about the new Deans on campus- :) I felt completely honored- Becca asked me a few simple...
January 2010
2 posts
Just a day!
January 2nd. What a good place to be- thinking about it this morning, I wondered if this were not one of the favorite days of most people….New Years Day sometimes gets ripped off- cause most folks stay up really really early waiting to ring in the New Year and before they know it is 3:00 in the morning and they are still playing the 40th hand of Yatzee or Spades…..and then they sleep...
“This is only one moment; it’s not the rest of your life.”
December 2009
3 posts
good-bye 2009
What a very original title…I must have seen it 20 times already on different blogs or FB post…. and it still seems pretty odd to me- to be saying good-bye to a whole nother year! 2009 is coming to a close..wait- what- really…. I guess I just let that one slip up on me….I vividly remember 2000 being here and thinking that we would all “blow up” or something- and...
From Far Away
It was way to late to be outside- but I was really having trouble sleeping- so I made a decision to go outside- I lay down on the blanket I had spread across the drive way and I looked up- star gazing is not something new to me—even to the point that when I was 12 years old I stood in the middle of ball field in a small town in Alabama and saw the tons and tons of stars and said someday...
i miss my mom.....
4 years…..it has officially today been 4 years since I lost my best friend- my confidant— my earthly advisor— my Mom. I have had an interesting day- I could have taken the day off, as a matter of fact my boss told me to take the day off…but I didn’t want the day off. I wanted to be busy….as busy as I could possibly be. I wanted to work and be on the phone...
November 2009
4 posts
~My early Christmas present~
It is almost 10pm. and I am sitting in a seat in the very back of Loyd Auditorium on campus— I know that I will be up here yet again another night until 1 a.m. or after- and as I sit here tonight I am crying— not because of sadness or even because I am exhausted beyond belief. I am crying because I sit here watching about 30 of the most loving, caring, talented young people work like...
Thanksgiving
Most people that know me well know that I would not normally EVER post a blog entitled Thanksgiving….after the big Turkey Day is over— however…
So why is this blog a day late and titled Thanksgiving?— well- it is simply because I have had such an incredible week- -my oldest son-his name is Ren- for those of you who do not know him. Well, each day in this week we have...
Sharing and Wrestling
Yesterday morning I woke up with a great thought in mind— all my boys are home! What an exciting and wonderful thing to wake up to- they of course were sound asleep due to a late night run to Steak n Shake- but they were all here- sleeping peacefully. I had in my mind visions of us ‘sharing’ this special time… it is going to be great- maybe we would sit around and play...
My Favorite Book
I have really been working to really really study my Bible this year- it has been a year of me asking myself questions and wondering if I could study on my own to find the truth. It has caused me to really really delve into the scriptures. Most often I have found myself doing this early in the morning- a fantastic way to begin my day not just with my prayer time but with a serious contemplation...