what a day!
what a day! It has been about two months ago that I started making some serious changes in my spiritual life— one of those was to not be complacent in worship- It seems sometimes that I get caught up in the being at services- so I can check that off my “to do” list that I forget to do what I need to do- what I long to do- what I find myself craving to do all week….I was finding myself not giving myself over to worshipping the Father that I love so much. But today- today was different- I sang- with all my heart to God- I felt like He was listening to me- I felt like He could hear the song in my heart flowing from my lips. Today- I wept as I thought about my Lord giving His life for me and I wept thinking of Mary and all that she must have felt that day- pride and fear and hurt all in one. I listened as Justin talked to us about 2 Corinthians 2:14-16- I pictured the triumphant parade as he described it and I thought about the wonderful sense of smell as he talked about it in a way I never ever heard before- and then he talked about each of us not keeping Jesus bottled up- but to let the world know that scent. It was incredible and sincerely I felt as though I came home and wanted to be more for God then I had ever been before. Then tonight— well tonight was just incredible- I started crying almost before I even knew it- thinking of what it must be like to see Him to try to bring oinment to annoint his head and being so overwhelmed with love for Him - being in His presence causing her to not even make it before she cries so hard she can do nothing else. It is a feeling that I should feel daily when I am studying the words of Christ or when I am seeing Christ in the lives of others— and then the simple words of Jesus asking Simon- “do you see the woman” I was so incredibly touched by these simple words that affected my heart so deeply and made me want to look at people and see them. I loved being with God’s people today but even more than that I felt like I was with God today. What a blessing- what a day! It was so good to be there- to be in God’s house with my brothers and sisters and feel that I was giving all I could in every way to this wonderful thing we call worship. What a day!!
